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well a lot has gone on. Epidurals they lie if they say that it is easy. They have been doing my back for a year now and I was concerned they are not doing it right and they are not. I was in hospital waiting my turn to get seen and the best I can say was OMG after all the tests they ran my headaches , heat and cold flashes was not me because of it two days prior.... but an air bubble because they literally decided to *other drs* mess up and hit the nerve and put air in my neck. HAHAHAAHA I have gas in my neck. I am going to harm that prick when I see him. Their mistakes make me worry for sure if they can do anything right.
Then friends birthday happened. I was trying to be positive it was hard and for some reason I was in more pain then I like then my phone broke. yeah broke and acted like a cyborg. it glitched and died twiced over heated and blacked out. Now that I am not using it but for music if is holding a charge and its fine so now I have to wait to make sure before I put money on it. eyebrow raised. got mugged earlier in the week. lost my cards and such. so going through a lot. blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

As some days go I have to say I have had a normal day of med cab and drs. with a twist of fate my sleep dr basically wants me to deal with the cpap machine and sleep well with meds to go to sleep. first time for that. So we shall see. Where that leads I already get weird ones for I am wearing a cpap and I feel scifish when I am wearing it. I don't like the fact I cannot sleep on my side and I don't thinking I like the indents either so I wake up two hours lately early to make sure I don't look too bad. freakin walking zombie cat that is all I can say for know mew.

ah today has been a day
dentist six months ago was not preventative and said everything was fine. tilts head today he tells me I am brushing to hard and my gums are not good and I need a super soft brush. Then in the afternoon my heart specialist decided to get me blood tests and heart tracker and more tests.
I don't care I don't care I don't care I don't care I don't care I don't care I don't care I don't care
a guy today hit on me and he is a pretty man. I said oh hell no.. pretty boys like toys and I am not a toy. I told him I am not a trophy wife I am an ogre a tad like Fiona just shorter hair and not green skinned. hmmm no that I think of it I have bigger boobs too. ehhh whatever...
Not heavens seed not going to go there. I know better. I love myself better then that.
Not today Not today Not today Not today Not today Not today Not today Not today Not today
then my friend died and I am not even sure how he died . I just know he was younger then me and it was unexpected and impacted our larper community. it put me shock more so then sadness. teen spirit came to mind so I am playing it for scurti right now.
time fades away time fades away time fades away time fades away time fades away
yep that was my day yeah

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BeautifulEnlightenment
04:21 Oct 13 2018

I'm so sorry. I hope your day gets better. 😍

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Today was a long day for Occupational therapy for my wrists and hands. OMG do I hurt. But hey it is worth it when I can get stronger and no longer weaker. SO I am grateful.
So I did something ballsy. I gave two wooden roses to a guy who does med cab service and finally saw him. He was like oh. I told him I got one for Devon and the other was for him was not sure of the color. I said you make me feel safe as he does. Thanks.
He DID not take the hint so I am thinking he has something or he could be gay. Or he is just not interested in me. and was being polite. never did it before so a more yes or no would have been nicer. Sh**.... HEy at least I tried.
I made a orast that was so good the animals and I have had most of it. Roommates where getting fish and so I was like yah have fun. :) Peaceful evening yeahhhhhh.

The topic of the century
Apparently there are some who find it which is lovely in a partner but then there are other ways to love.
Love of life dancing in everything we have in the world that makes you feel loved and free.
Love of people the people person who just loves people and tries to help out anyway they can.
Love of Humanity they believe in a deeper cause and love humans whole heartedly.
Love of their God they really have a faith that is strong and complete and the trust is there. No matter if you see them or not.
Unconditional love you have no conditions on that person place or thing.
Conditional love when you say the word mine and you believe that other person is yours. type of love.
Then the crazy kind of love ........
I have been in love when it is a whirlwind of joy and love and happiness. But then it can turn to death and your love dies. the reason why I am depressive at this point is because I have been there and done that and had the t shirt. Crazy kind of love is actually cute when you are in it. But when it slows down and you realize one partner does not love the partner the same it just does what I say about. It is a cautionary tale for some whole heartedly believe in it. Which is wonderful and I appalled anyone who can take that in and dive. But I am also saying it can be the death of you for when it is gone you dry up. and madness begins.
Not saying any are bad just saying love can be awesome depending on the kind of love you have for a person place or thing..

To start off so I am going to say that this is not to offend political people or Trump likers or haters. I am not either.. After the Ford hearing there was a lot of bull**** about her not being a survivor and truly that is madness. One it was a huge thing for her to tell her story to try and make a difference. Two people are throwing shade on her as though she was a part of the interview for Kavanagh’s employment. It was not for only for that but his character. IF his character is that a child, that liked beer, loves beer convfefe to him. He proved that is not note worthy to be on the court. He acted like a teenager and was rude. NOW Trump truly knows nothing about a rape survivor and what we go through. I am normally quiet but today I am not. So are here are key points for all that say she faked it and was inconsistent. She did not need a calendar for she had a therapist about the act that happened to her. I would think that is more real then a calendar saying things like devils triad which is not a drinking game but a threesome with people not cups. WINKAPEDIA totally off their rocker.
A survivor tries hard to block the past to make sure that they don’t go through it again and again for it is a nightmare that needs to be pushed far away from your very soul. if she does remember anything it is the at over and over.
Date and time NEVER is remembered unless that Survivor has that ingrained in her or him.
A survivor does not only fight for the rights of others if there is injustice to one, it is to all.. For their vision has changed for life.
Again not understanding how politics has the belief of what that woman went through. They have no right to say what they are saying about her. IF they believe they are the good guy and both see the other as the bad guy and all you see is hate for USA on both sides, maybe we need real brown coats to change the government all together. Where is the reset button when we need one???

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xAngelofAgonyx
00:08 Oct 04 2018

Allegations without substantiation do not make facts. Unfortunately this fiasco is actually going to make it harder for real victims. Anyone can make allegations but the burden of proof is supposed to be on the accuser. People forget that in this country you are innocent until proven guilty and liking beer isn't a crime and I doubt Kavanaugh was a booze hound as some pundits are trying to imply. I doubt you can be a big boozer and graduate top of your class both in high school and Yale. This is just political theater to try to block a conservative judge and if the democrats are successful everyone should be afraid because it means due process has been lost for us all.

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I went to ren fair yeah! It was truly a nice change. I was happy that is for sure. I got to listen to music and get witchy stuff and just love the music filled air. The best thing was I was out there with people for 3 and a half hours with people walking and sitting. which is a lot for me for I am biopolar and dislike people very much so I am no exception to that rule I am human and dislike being one. Barely go out and do things unless forced against my will.
and I have eds . lol I am Sallye ( from nightmare) kinda broken but have gifts too. anyways that was an eventful weekend.
Today I have ano more then two docotros today which is lovely for the heat is truly out there is full bloom today feelslike a hair dryer vooommmmmmmmmmmm